W o r k e d

Worked. 

What works you up?

I worked. Few things.

Music.

Got vulnerable through admittance of want. Work I want. 

Music.

in the void,
                   i,
   well,
                   i,


i'm ashamed,
of you,
and the way i act to you,
i act this way because of you.

i'm sad,
for you,
and the way i can't make you feel better,
i feel this way because of you.

i'm alone,
me,
       and well,

i feel this way because of you.

PAIRS

couples

S I S T E R S

brothers
DUO

p  a  r  e  n  t  s

LOVERS

friends

protection from separation

Judgement Attendant

I became aware of the minivans when my supervisor said one was parked in a handicapped space without a tag and he'd written them a ticket they would have to pay upon exiting. Without a given color to include in the description of "minivan" all vans were henceforth noticed, maybe to account for possible error or generalization? Who knows. 

Perhaps my sense of injustice was piqued. 

Crime is an interesting thing, I believe, mostly because its boundaries are forever being bent and stretched. There are things that are wrong and things that are defined as wrong and result in punishment be it fine or jailtime, whatever. But For instance, let us insert the word 'petty' into the equation. Is that where someone taking a handicapped spot without actually being handicapped, falls?  And what of the customer I had last week who left his dog in the car for several hours? Apparently Security felt they could do nothing. I find the motivation (and or lackthere of) interesting. 

The people who did not display their tag but parked in the handicapped spot said they forgot and showed me their tag upon exiting. What I saw was a possibly expired June 2012 blue and white flash...and a driver that appeared handicapped. 

 

While this might seem like the triviaI tale of a bored parking lot attendant what it ultimately made me consider is how we maintain good judgement. I have two jobs that involve isolation and repetitive tasks. It is easy run on auto pilot and react robotically. When something 'different'occurs I think it is important to not let that variation skew my perception and judgement. 

Panopticon Solstice

A few summers ago I wrote a very dry song a bout the end of the world. It seemed the only appropriate response to a topic I could see in the beginning of a re-trend... an uprising of subject matter discussed casually, if you will.
But people have always talked about the end of the world.
How funny is that?

I am grateful for the professor who taught me to think beyond the initial definition we apply to the word "apocalypse"


http://soundcloud.com/illiteratewatersofbunk/omnipotent


Happy New Year

i've had a journal that i've written in here and there since the seventh grade.

i used to hide it under the recliner in my room.

somewhere along the way i ripped out a bunch of pages,

i was worried that someone would read them and know how i really felt.

when i went to college it came with me.

i used to hide it in the bottom of the drawer i kept my pants in.

upon reading the older entires i noticed the missing pages, 

i wanted to know how i used to feel and what caused me to feel that way.

here i am living my life in the city.

i keep it right out on the top of my desk.

looking back and laughing i am flooded with emotion, 

i want to let someone to read it and have a better understanding of who i am.

i know myself, 

and no one knows me.

heh

I Did my laundry today
Timer say it caught me offguard

even though, even if

 I set it
butReady
wellI reckon